In his heart man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps. Proverbs 16:9
I started back to work last week, right at the beginning of the holiday season, with a million things to do. It was a crazy busy week, without a sliver of time to fit in one more thing. I was drained and exhausted and in no mood to deal with my kids’ misbehavior.
But that didn’t stop Mason from going over the line. My first reaction was: Why do I have to deal with this, on top of everything else? Little did I know what was in store for me.
When I sat down with Mason to address it, I was so depleted, I didn’t have the energy to yell. What would have been my usual lecture and shaming session turned into me digging dip and laying it all on the line.
In a voice quieter than I’ve ever used, I explained why his infraction was a big deal; how the choice he made put that choice in power, not him. He was allowing that choice to have control over him, creating an idol out of it. At just twelve years of age, he was creating a hole inside of himself, one that he would then have to fill with some other vice down the road.
As God spoke through me, I explained he had a different choice now: Hear me saying he was a terrible kid who made bad choices, or hear me saying this was a great opportunity to reclaim his life. If he could learn, at his young age, to get his priorities straight, he’d be less inclined to make bigger mistakes down the road, ones he might not recover from.
He may just be twelve, but Mason is an old soul. He’s mature and wise beyond his years. I could tell he was getting every word I was saying.
In the process, he and I connected more deeply than we have in months. Right in the midst of one of the busiest times I’ve had in years, this interruption forged a bond between us that drew us closer than we’ve been in a while.
There’s an old saying: “Who’s to say what’s bad or good?” What I thought was the absolute worst time for such a big issue to crop up, turned into a reminder that our Perfect God knows exactly what needs to happen when.
When I let go of my own agenda and let His play out, I’m reminded that what I perceive to be an interruption is actually God wanting to bless and restore me.
Questions for Reflection:
* Do I live life according to my own agenda, or do I allow God’s agenda to unfold and bless me?